Assalamualaikum...

    My past, enough for me to regret bout it. But the truth is, i already done wrongdoings that i truly can't forgive myself. That's the big mistakes i ever had. I pray to Allah S.W.T for seeking His forgiveness for the sin that i have commit and turning repentant unto Him. It should not be forgotten that, being human beings are prone to committing sins. I should be kept in mind that while seeks repentance then it should be a sincere repentance, that i'm really sorry for the sins committed and a firm resolution not to repeat again. I try to be a good muslimah, Try to be a good daughter, try to be a good friend, and try to be a good girlfriend to my lover. But i know in order to get Allah 's love and His blessing and forgiveness,so we should pray (doa) everyday..We are only human,which is full with weakness..

   I'm trying to be a good muslimah. i mean a better one. better than today. better than ever. Deep inside my heart, i know and i realize, that i'm not a good Muslimah. I have and must change myself, but then i always failed with my lust. it's been in my mind for a long time. And the desire to change was always lost to the lust.

  First, i started with hijab. Alhamdulillah. hijab will always covering my head. but i know, covering just my head and hair is not enough. as wearing a hijab is to cover the chest too. i failed with that. yet, im trying my best. slowly changing my lifestyle. My appearance. InsyaAllah. May Allah be with me.

   Then, i used to wear something fit. something that can show my body figure. And Alhamdulillah again. With NUR from Allah, i started to wear something loose. but, jyeahhh.. Still not loose enough. as i said earlier, i failed to against my lust. My fault. I'm trying my best too..

   Today, i'm not yet a good muslimah. With my words, my attitude, i know. I still have to change lots and lots a thing. I hope i will strong enough to against the dunnia lust. There maybe millions of such things which we don't know, but we can always certainly make an effort to strengthen our faith towards Allah.