For the one that I've always care...

    " The more my mouth saying I HATE YOU, my heart beating more faster and saying I MISS YOU "

    No matter what happen, in any situation you can't lie your own feelings. You can pretend that you are fine in front of everyone. But not yourself. Crying helps to make you feel more stronger and feel much better. But crying did not help to solve the problem. Make a move, dare to take a risk. And that's what we called a life.

So here we go...

     I know that we're just friends or more that just friends, but i feel a bit strange when i'm with you. Maybe i'm a bit lonely. That's why i  need someone to stay beside me when i'm bored or when i'm sad. But you're already know that i have a boyfriend. But still wanna be with me even tho you know how much i loved him. Life isn't fair enough right or maybe i'm just avaricious too much. Yeah, I know that.. I'm just a greedy person who is so damn selfish.

     I really like you. I do. You're so nice, and sweet, and you listen to all my problems and respond with the appropriate compliments. You wouldn't want to ruin a friendship like that just so you could be my boyfriend, and have me look at you with desire and longing in my eyes, if only once would you? Of course not. Well, if we started dating, it would only complicate this wonderful setup I've got going here. But, well i don't really see a relationship in our future. It would be terrible if we let it destroy this great friendship we have, where i get everything i want and you get nothing you want. Anything can happen once you bring romance in. Don't you think?

I knew you would understand. You always do..

    Anyway, you would totally hate me as your girlfriend. I'd be all needy and dramatic and slowly growing to love you. If i was your girlfriend, I would never be able to tell you all about the other asshole guys i date and pretend i don't see how much it crushes you. Let's never lose that. That's what makes us us.

    Don't worry. You're so funny and smart and amazing, any girl but me would be lucky to date you. You'll find someone. And when you do, i'll be right by your side to suddenly become all flirty and affectionate with you in front of her, until she grows jealous and won't believe it when you say we're just friends. But when she dumps you, that's just what we'll be. 

Oh, before I forget, my mom says hi.




P/s : If you were in my shoes. You will understand what i feel right now..Hope we're still friends. And i always miss you.